My Bloggy Wog

I feel numb, angry and confused.

The scores for SFC were posted on the website, upon my request.

Is Judge X a complete liar? Did he tell me things to make me look like a complete arsehole to encourage “drama”? He didn’t tell me in an obvious way but in a manipulative, suggestive way.

Last night:

Me: I think this happened…. can you tell me if I’m wrong and not comment if I’m right?

Him: —no comment made for several minutes—

This to me, confirmed my suspicions. I went full guns blazing and called Host X a “two faced son of a bitch”. I called Judge Y a liar. It was VERY confusing to say the least. 

The scores are up and Judges Y and X marked me the highest. Judge friend was quite the opposite… 

Then, there’s the knowledge of the phone call:

Unnamed Contact x 2: Em won’t win because Judge Y doesn’t like her

Is it all fabricated? I will never know. 

I am upset that my team mates didn’t all vote and several scores weren’t counted. 

I am upset that all that has come out of this is me looking like an asshole. A silly boy wanted a little Drama because all he has is You Tube. I am saddened by this, especially since learning how high he marked me.

He denied everything he had said in our conversation this morning which riled me.

Life is full of injustice and I just have to deal with it. 

I can’t deny it, I enjoy a bit of drama. But not at the expense of myself. 

I made a decision to remove the people from my life that breed “drama”… they are now gone. 

It is so easy to remove people from our Internet Lives. 

I figure the only thing to do in order to preserve my sanity is to move on and forget about it. Focus a little more on my Real Life and do the occasional Vlog. But for now, I need a break from Vlogging. A week off would be nice. Or two, or ten.