May 10th, 2009

Painting by Nicole There are few words that express how I feel.  Angry. Anxious. Depressed. Judged. Patronised. Used. Unpopular. Unappreciated. Weak. Deserving. Pitiful. Tearful. Mistreated. Bullied. Controlled. Strong. Resigned. Undermined. Hateful. Rebellious. Controlled. Angry.  I am angry for allowing myself to be Judged by people who many place on an unwarranted pedestal, despite not being any more successful than I. I’m hurt. I’m upset from learning about the inconsistency and falseness of it. Familiar constructs don’t equal a fair environment. 

Painting by Nicole

There are few words that express how I feel. 

Angry. Anxious. Depressed. Judged. Patronised. Used. Unpopular. Unappreciated. Weak. Deserving. Pitiful. Tearful. Mistreated. Bullied. Controlled. Strong. Resigned. Undermined. Hateful. Rebellious. Controlled. Angry. 

I am angry for allowing myself to be Judged by people who many place on an unwarranted pedestal, despite not being any more successful than I. I’m hurt. I’m upset from learning about the inconsistency and falseness of it. Familiar constructs don’t equal a fair environment.